Yet so often there is also an underlying self-doubt or questioning. They tell me that they regularly lose sight of their aspirations and get caught up in self-judgment and addictive behaviors. They go on autopilot or get stuck in painful old habits that distance them from others.
One student said, “Each day there’s a gap between my potential and how I live. That gap makes me feel like I’m always falling short.”
Many times a day, I too notice that gap between my aspiration to live from loving awareness and the self-centeredness of my thoughts and actions. For years my negative judgments of myself fed what I now call the trance of unworthiness, the belief that I am a deficient self. But it’s possible to break out of that trance.